Saturday, March 27, 2010
It was Tuesday, I was one day late for my period. I decided to look up baby names. The days and weeks before were some of my darkest depressing days since I lost Audrey, and I was losing all motivation to really live. I was merely surviving. "So", I thought, "It can't hurt for me to hope for our future children - even if I do seem crazy". I spent hours looking up names and meanings of names, I was really having fun. I really didn't think I was pregnant. Thursday I had a full day and still no period. As I was getting ready to run outta the house it was close to lunchtime and I grabbed a sandwich. A nauseous feeling came over me and I thought, "Gees I haven't felt like this in a long time, I hate this feeling...I haven't felt like this since...well...oh- my-lanta!" My own thoughts stopped me in my tracks. I thought, " I am SO pregnant !" I took my B vitamin drops and prayed they would get me through the day. When I reached my destination I was overcome by the aroma of horse manure and herbal infusions. ( I was on a farm where handmade natural products are made and sold.) I had a model to make gorgeous and I could hardly concentrate! Needless to say I made it through. On Sunday morning I took the test that confirmed my suspicion. It was a BIG FAT POSITIVE!!! That means I am now 5 weeks pregnant. Here's to praying that this baby is a take home baby!