|Naomi Alazne 8lbs.3oz. 19.5 inches|
We arrived to the hospital at 5:30am on Wednesday morning Nov. 24th. My nurses prepped me for surgery which included two blown veins as a result of one nurse attempting to get an IV placed. As I previously wrote, I was not looking forward to the c-section but of course wanted to meet our baby! I experienced a lot of fear while waiting until our 7:00 surgery time, in fact I would venture to say I was bordering on a panic attack a few times. I was so afraid of something going wrong and losing Naomi too. It was a battlefield in my mind that morning..I was fighting to stay sane, I was fighting to feel joy, I was fighting to focus on Naomi's approaching birth and not Audrey's. It was so difficult to be in the moment completely saturated in joy -like parents of a new baby would be expected to be. Instead it felt more like I was having a surgical procedure, not bringing our beautiful baby into the world. Nonetheless we did - bring her into the world. She was born at 7:28am. If I could have cried, I would have, it was such a beautiful moment. Apparently, I needed to be able to feel my stomach in order to cry and since I couldn't, the tears just wouldn't come.
The anesthesiologist said that once I start to feel my upper body being pushed up and pulled down, the moment she appears over the curtain is near. Sure enough as I was feeling this pulling he spoke of, I heard my OB say, "Wow, this is a good sized baby! Maybe a nine pounder!" Then he held her up for me to see ever so briefly over the curtain. As the nurses took her to the baby station, someone said, "Look at all that red hair." I asked Jamie, "Do they mean red, red?" He said, "Oh yeah, it's red."
I thought, "huh, I never imagined red hair, I assumed it would be brown, I pictured brown and Audrey had dark brown."
All I could see from where I layed was her right leg and foot kicking about as she cried and cried. Oh,what music that was to my ears. I could tell from there that she too had her daddy's feet- just like Audrey.
It seemed like it took a lifetime for the doc to put me back together. It also seemed like a lifetime for the nurses to do all they needed with Naomi, I was anxious to see her and hold her. Finally, when Jamie came back from her station holding her, I stared at her in amazement, realizing she is ours. We get to keep her! That is when the joy overcame me. I am so in love!
After about an hour in the OR, we were transferred back into our room where I was finally able to hold my baby girl and begin breastfeeding- which she was a natural at! A good friend arrived about a half hour later, then my dad and step-mom.Other visitors slowly came throughout the day and not all at once...it was almost as if they had appointment times- that was really cool. It was a perfect morning. Everything came together and we have our beautiful baby Naomi home with us now.
I am so in love!